She rummaged around in her closet, but IT wasn’t there. She rifled through the chest of drawers, but IT wasn’t there. She searched through all her belongings to no avail; she just couldn’t find IT.
She tried being creative in the arts, but she couldn’t conjure IT up. She attempted to be a writer, but IT just didn’t flow out of her. She volunteered in homeless shelters, but IT wasn’t there to satisfy her.
She determined IT must be in a new house, so she cajoled her husband into buying one. But IT wasn’t in the new house. She even went to church, thinking surely IT would be there. But to her great disappointment, sitting in the pew and working on committees didn’t reveal IT.
She threw herself into her marriage and her children, but the IT she was looking for was not there. She filled her days with busyness and schedules, but IT sidestepped her.
She coveted money, searching high and low for IT, but IT could not be found in dollar bills. She attempted to climb the ladder of success, reaching for the brass ring, but IT was illusive; IT wasn’t at the top.
She thought IT must be in the majesty of the mountains, so she took a vacation, but IT evaded her there. So, she tried the immensity of the ocean, but its vastness did not provide IT either.
One day, her emptiness became overwhelming. She gave up and opted to go off by herself. She climbed to the top of a nearby hill. She thought: no more roar of the waves or massive mountain heights; no more lure of the corporate ladder or lust for material things; no more distraction of family or schedules; no more searching.
She fell on her face on the hilltop…and just listened.
She listened to the gentle whispers of nature, to the soothing melodies of the birds, to the rustling of leaves bumping against each other in the wind. She felt the cool grass beneath her; she smelled the fragrance of the honeysuckle as it wafted on the delicate breeze. She felt the warmth of the sun caressing her body.
As she listened, she could hear her heart beating within her; she could hear the echo of her soul’s emptiness.
Stilling her deep agony and wiping away her tears, she heard a Voice speak softly within her. And in that very moment, IT came to her…
“My child, your searching is over. I am the IT you’ve been longing to find. The IT you have sought in all the wrong places. Those places are all mirages without Me. Though I am in all those places, you can never realize My Presence fully unless you allow Me to take up residence within your heart and soul. You may search the world over, but only when you allow Me to first live within you, will you fully know you have found IT. Only then will you be fulfilled and live the life I created you to live. Allow Me to love you, to fill you, to satisfy you, and you will search no more.”
Only in the wonder of stillness will you find tender communion with the Lord. Listen for the footfall of your Beloved. Listen for His words of love, joy, and peace. Welcome His Presence into your heart and soul. Allow Him to love you, to comfort you, to fill you, to satisfy you.