My first thought was…I wanna do-over! I feel as if I failed in 2013 but I know the Lord came for failures. Some things remain unaccomplished. My first book is still sitting on the shelf, stuck there for now. Like it’s smothered in Gorilla glue. I feel smothered in Gorilla glue!
I won’t go any farther. Too maudlin. But since I am always – ALWAYS – grateful to the Lord for everything, I’ll march forward ready to embrace a new year.
I read Ann Voskamp’s wonderful post called How to Move Forward into the New Year…when you feel like you failed the last year. She, too, wanted a do-over of last year. I sighed as I read it. Not only because it is a great post but because I commiserated with her as well.
Ann tells of talking on the phone to her friend…
“I’m not ready for a new year and moving forward. I want a do-over on the last year.” I don’t tell her that sometimes it’s not the moving forward that is the hardest — it is to keep moving forward.…
Her words remind me. As a Christmas episode of the M*A*S*H series opens, Father Mulcahy sits in the mess tent waiting for someone to show up for his weekly sermon. As no one comes, he writes a letter to his sister, which is heard throughout the episode as a voiceover.
He tells her he’s frustrated that he’s not more effective. He feels he doesn’t make a difference in the lives of those in the M*A*S*H unit.
“I’m almost desperate to be useful, Sis,” he laments.
Appalled at himself for an unfortunate altercation with a patient, he goes outside for a quiet brood. Hawkeye follows him out and comments to him, to which Mulcahy responds, “I’m Christ’s representative. ‘Suffer the little children to come unto Me.’ ‘Do unto others.’ I’m not supposed to just say that stuff; I’m supposed to do it!”
Hawkeye says, “All you’re supposed to do is the best you can.”
After a little more conversing, Mulcahy says, “It isn’t just that. I don’t seem to make a difference here. I hang around on the edge of effectiveness…”
His words cut deep. Frustrated. Ineffective. Desperate to be useful. Ever feel that way?
At the end of the episode, the gang oohs and ahhs as they look out the mess tent window at the compound being covered in snow. A truce was supposed to be in effect but a truck pulls up and brings more wounded.
As the gang rushes out to help, Mulcahy’s words are heard, “You know, Sis, it doesn’t matter whether you feel useful or not when you’re moving from one disaster to another. The trick, I guess, is to just keep moving.”
And that’s it: Just keep moving! And do the best you can.
Ann ended her post with Philippians 3:13b-14. Here it is in the Revised Standard Version:
“One thing I do, forgetting what lies behind and straining forward to what lies ahead, I press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus.”
I’ll keep moving forward through the year, “straining forward to what lies ahead,”
even if I merely fall forward! I’ll keep getting up, moving on, and trying to do my best to “press on to reach that goal.”
How about you? Will you continue to just. keep. moving. forward?
*Thank you, sweet readers, for the precious time you spend with me, reading (and commenting on) what the Lord places on this ol’ heart. May you do the best you can throughout the New Year! I pray the Lord fills it with everything you need and then some and may you be overwhelmed by His blessings!
**Ann Voskamp, writer extraordinaire! Author of One Thousand Gifts, The Greatest Gift, as well as several others. Don’t miss her wonderful site! And thank you, Ann, for allowing me to quote you! May the Lord bless you outrageously!